I’m crying, my soul
I’m losing control
I’m tired of listening to the sound of my tears,
Tired of constantly battling my fears,
Tired of struggling with challenges that continuously reappear.
Tired of the constancy,
the constancy of judgment.
Tired of hiding,
hiding who I really am.
Tired of trying to stay strong.
Tired of pretending,
pretending to be happy when all I want to do is cry.
Tired of not being able to let go,
let go of all the pain and emotions that consume me.
Tired of dreaming,
dreaming of a life I will never have.
Tired of not being good enough.
Tired of remembering,
remembering how I used to be so happy.
Tired of the blame,
the blame I put on myself daily.
Tired of the anger.
Tired of holding on when all I want to do is give up.
Tired of being tired.
Tired of being me.
All alone, I cry here,
fading into nothing.
All alone I lie here
ख़ाली नहीं रहा कभी
आँखों का ये मकान,
सब अश्क़ निकल गये
तो उदासी ठहर गयी…💫